I am on a Journey, a journey to heal the wounds from my painful past. I am giving myself the voice I never had as a child, and today I write through my blog to connect with myself, and to others on a similar journey.
I am an adult survivor of child sexual abuse. I was abused from the age 5 until I was 10 years old by my "much" older brothers living in the same house.
It wasn't until 9 years agothat I opened up about the abuse I endured as a child. I began therapy 9 years old as I hid this deep dark secret through my childhood, my young adult life, and even through my marriage and having 3 wonderful children.
I took the steps to healing 9 years ago, and I have to say it has been the most amazing journey I have taken, and I am so glad that I took the courage to open up about the painful wounds that kept me still within.
Being a victim of child sexual abuse is no longer a secret, and today not only do I continue to heal through therapy, but I am writing about it in my blog, and that process of healing, so that others can see that "you are not alone, other people out there have gone through the same thing".
Healing is painful, but what is more painful is keeping those secrets hidden inside. What is more painful is isolating the truth, and being alone in the pain. I have learned that by talking about the sexual abuse I was put through as a child - empowers me, and gives me the freedom to find the "me" inside that was hidden by the lies of the abuse.
I was sexually abused by the very people I thought loved me, by family who were supposed protect me and care for me. I lived a childhood in constant fear of "what will happen next?" and "when will it end?" . . .
no child should ever have to endure such pain and fear, and today I am healing those wounds, and I am healing the young child within so that I can put those lies and fears to rest - to live the life I was meant to live.
I hope, that by writing about my story and writing about my healing, I can reach out to others who also walk this journey. You are not alone - your story matters, and your wounds deserve to heal.