my view from here

110478997078980333_gEluhie0_cAfter 2 whole years of having my blog up, I changed the look for the very first time. It's not just a change of look, but a change emotionally as well.

People know me all too well that I am a routine person. I go to the same store, the same gas station, use the same pump, get the same drink everyday, and so on.

Changing the look of my blog was a huge step. I not only changed the look of my blog, but I also changed what was behind it.

I gave it walls, I gave it safety - yet I left it more open to those who appreciate it, honor it, and hold it close to them as I hold it close to me.

I created a safety net around it; back to a safe place to write and to be.

It's not exactly how I wanted my blog to be when I first started writing 2 years ago, but I have learned that sometimes even when you work hard to take all your walls down, sometimes walls are necessary. I believe there are good walls - good boundaries.

You wont see the walls, you wont see the safety nets, but you will see it through me and my writing.

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another" ANATOLE FRANCE

You will notice my ability to write the way I used to write with no fear, filtering or wonderment.

You will see it through the words, the openness and the risks to open my voice bigger. You may even see it in the darkness or in the light.

I see the walls, I see the safety nets I have put up, but the view from here going forward is far to greater than the walls that surround this place I like to call home; a home to where the people who follow me on this journey are worth all the walls and nets I had to endure to make this happen.

It will take some time for me to get used to the new look. I will love it, but I will also hate it at times because it's SO new for me.. but emotionally, ah! I like the view from here so far!

The view looks like a wide open sky to where my voice is a voice and not an echo. The view is like the birds that fly freely after enduring stormy weather, and they rest on a branch knowing they can take a break and just BE.

I hope you can see it too ... and if you can't yet, I am sure you will in time.