continued connection

Tree's remind me of connection. Tree's have roots and branches that only grow by being nourished by water and light. The roots cannot get stronger if it's not connected, and when it is connected, it grows bigger and stronger. Connection has and always will be a huge part of my healing. It's been the core foundation of my healing for almost 6 years now - it's what we do, it's what I have come learned, and it's now something I try and accept.

Today as I was out and about with my husband I got a text from my Therapist reminding me of the connection; that the connection was good and I was good. When I got that text, I stopped doing what I was doing, I took it in, re-grounded myself, took a deep breath and smiled.

It came at a good time because I was starting to let the hecticness and busyness of life and post holidays pull me in again, and he reminded me to stay grounded; that connection is here - so tonight I am writing and connecting.

There is this quote from the bible that reminds me about connection and "not doing it alone" and it reads:

"As the branches, if separated from the parent stock, could produce no fruit, but would immediately wither and die, ... God can do without man, but man cannot do without God."

This makes so much sense to me. I once heard my priest say in the homily "the moment you start to live life thinking you can do it alone, is the day you are truly doing it alone".

Connection is about letting others in, and letting yourself out. I sometimes get caught in the old messages from my past, I need to do it alone, or it's not safe to reach out to others. Those are old messages, but time and time again those old messages creep in and I pull in, and like today I was reminded once again that connection is around me, I just need to accept it.

This has been a very busy break, and it's hard to believe it's almost over already, but I do have to say this break is the most I have stayed in connection not only with my support, or friends and family, but most importantly MYSELF.

I will continue to stay in connection as I look forward to ringing in the new year with friends and family and of course more food - but I will also stay connected and remind myself that if I come back to my center, this is where the connection is, RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW.

I responded back to my therapist and said "I am so blessed for the connection around me, these are the things I hold onto in the good and the hard".

This is a reminder tonight that I cannot do it alone and connection is where I grow and heal.