five minute friday {quiet}

Welcome to five minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing. No editing or backtracking necessary. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours.

 

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {quiet}

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"One you have learned how to enter your inner kingdom, you have a special retreat within that is always available to you"

Sometimes for me, the quiet space is scary for me. Sometimes when it's too quiet, it gives me too much room to think, or too many emotions to be with. I like the hecticness of life sometimes, because the busier I am, the less I can think or feel.

What I have learned the most in therapy is how to quiet down the hardness in my mind - how to tone out the old messages inside, and to learn how to be in a quiet space and still feel safe.

I think for me, sometimes the quiet is a scary place for me because I spent my whole childhood being in the quiet - not just in voice, but in soul. Today I like having a voice and the healthy hecticness of my home and busyness of life. When things get quiet, it reminds me of the alone space I had as a child to where I was constantly in fear and sadness.

Therapy and healing has taught me to embrace the quietness as a healthy place for me to be; to tone down the old messages that tell me that quiet = sadness and fear and allow my to see the quietness as a place to rest and be and feel safe.

I take more time out for myself now that I am slowly learning how to embrace that quietness, and my hope is that someday I wont have to contantly be making myself busy, but rather give myself more of the quiet that I truly need.

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