Five Minute Friday - Change

Welcome to five minute Friday to where us bloggers where we are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing. No editing or backtracking necessary. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours.

Today’s Five minute Friday word is “Change”

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I have no idea how Lisa picks the words every week, but each week when I open the 5 minute Friday website at midnight, it's always a word about something I am going through!

I was excited to see the word "change" because I am going through so many changes in my life, in my healing, on this journey, and most importantly how I see things.

My therapist said something to me a couple of weeks ago about "change". We were talking about a certain situation that has not changed, and he said to me in his very gentle and caring way, took my hand, and said "sometimes we have to make the change, because someone else won't".

Those words that he spoke to me changed my whole outlook on how I see things, it refocused how I view this, and I did make the change - a HUGE change.

It's incredibly hard to make a change when it's not about ME doing anything wrong, it's about someone else - but he made me realize that sometimes we need to change to move away from something or in this case "someone" who won't, and I did that, and I feel so free from this now.

The change was knowing that I have empowerment over the weak, and not allowing it to overcome me anymore. I am not the one stuck - I am moving on and moving on in a beautiful way.

Not only have I made changes in this certain situation, but I have also made changes in my life physically.

I am back to working out with a trainer  3 days a week, and have been now for about 14 days now. It's painful, it's hard work, but I am getting fit and feeling absolutely wonderful! I am eating clean and healthy, and I dont think I have felt this great in a long time.

Change has also been happening in my healing - My therapist and I have this new bond that I never really felt before in my 5+ years of working through my healing, and it has opened me up to really be OPEN with no fear, none at all. I feel I can get to the core of anything and feel safe!

I have come to realize a different side to my healing in this chaos of a year I have had, and it has open up more trust, connection, care, and support in therapy that I never allowed myself to feel before, or think I was worth - today I know different.

I believe that this new found part in my healing in therapy, is what also got me to get back into weight lifting. It gave me a new sense of self worth - and I thank my therapist for helping me to open that door by ONE WORD "change" ..

It's not about ME - it's about someone else, but I am willing to make the change for me, even though it's not my change to make.

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This was more than 5 minutes, but today I made a change and made it 10 :)