five minute friday - {connect}

Today I am joining Lisa-Jo and others for the 5 Minute Friday where we are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing. No editing or backtracking necessary. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours.

Today's Five minute Friday word is {connect}

Ready . . Set .. Go!

My heart leapt when I saw the word connect as the five minute Friday word this week - I got excited, because connection and being connected is a huge part of my everyday life and thru healing - and what better timing is this for me as I am really in full connection with the hard word I have done as of lately.

Connection is not something that came to me easy by any means. I showed up to therapy 5 1/2 years ago and I had no idea how to connect with people without walls, I didn't know how to connect with emotions, or to even connect with myself.

I was fearful of allowing people to approach me. When people came towards me to hug me, I would take 3 steps back, or run for a room where connection was not something I had to engage in. The only immediate people I had connection with was my husband and kids, but walls still covered the full feeling of what connection truly was.

Since therapy, my wonderful therapist has gentle and lovingly taught me how to accept connection, how to be connected to him and others, how to hug, how to express and connect with my emotions, how to love and be connected to myself, and how to reconnect with my relationship with God.

Connection is the core foundation of the work in my healing, and the core foundation In therapy. Its what has gotten me to this place I am in today - a better path towards healing without walls so I can feel and be.

Today I accept hugs I embrace the connection around me. I am connected with my emotions, connected to the loving people around me. I am connected to God and connected to acceptance.

My walls are not completely gone, but I have learned to connect around them, in them, through them, and inside of them when they are up.

I love the word connection! I love being in connection, I love when connection finds me, and I am able to accept it with no price to pay.

I owe so much to my therapist for really showing me how to find that inner connection inside of me, and showing me that I am loved and cared for and worth the connection I am finding myself to be in.

I also connect in this blog through my writing. I have learned to write and be open to my healing, and I have allowed myself to connect with truth and others.

I never thought I would say this, but I love to HUG people now, and I can actually feel the connection in that - its pretty powerful to feel something you never truly understood before. I knew the action of connection, but never felt it.

This was more than 5 minutes, but today I am making an exception because I feel connected in writing this