five minute friday - enough

Welcome to Five Minute Friday – We bloggers write for five minutes flat on Fridays. We set a timer for 5 minutes, throw caution to the wind! write for 5 minutes, no drafting, no editing, no correcting 

Today’s word is: ENOUGH

Start: Years ago I couldn't even utter the words "enough" or "I am enough".

When I saw that today's word was "enough" the first thing I thought of was this little hand made book that my therapist stapled together himself and gave to me one day in session - words of affirmation like the words "you are good enough" "you are worthy" "you are loved and cared for" "you are worthy of connection" "you are a good person" "you are not alone"

I carry that little booklet around with me inside my agenda book, and whenever I feel I am not good enough, I look at that book and trust that my past is where I believed I wasn't good enough, and today I am learning to believe I AM good enough.

It took me a long time to look at the book and believe the words, and today I am getting better at it.

My husband tells me many times through the day that he loves me, but I never thought I was enough for love, until just years ago when I started to learn that "I am enough".

It's not easy to turn that belief around when you feel your whole life you were nothing, and never good enough for others.

I am a good mom, I am a child of god, I am a good wife, a good friend, a good person, and that is good enough.

I make mistakes, I fall short sometimes, I have a past that haunts me, I go through hard moments in my healing that sometimes has me to my knee's, but in that I have learned that I am good enough to be with that healing.  

It has taken me years to believe the word I am enough, worthy, or that I give enough or have done enough, and although sometimes I don't feel these words to be true, I just pull out that small little booklet that was made for me, and I read the words "I am enough" until I believe it.