31 days of Reflection {day 4} making time

31d72bf09099c040ea9bb388d48630f8I am a day behind on the 31 day writing challenge. I should be on day 5, but I am sitting here Sunday morning writing day 4, and hopefully day 5 will follow this evening. At first this bothered me. I am normally a structured person when it comes to challenges like this, but a part of me feels I may not have been ready for this challenge coming right off the heels of starting my own Tuesday Link up.

As I thought about it more, maybe it's okay that I got a step behind, this is a writing connection, not a contest for having things on time, and in fact, when you are being true to who you are, no one is perfect, and yes TIME will slip away in the real world.

Maybe a part of the challenge is noticing the flaws with time. Maybe this is my way of seeing just how little I give myself time to write and be with the things I love to be with.

Maybe this was a way for me to see that no matter what, this is what life is ... time gets away, life is busy, we get tired and our body needs sleep, or the laundry needs to be done, or an errand to run, and before you know it's it's 11pm and your dozing off in front of the computer wanting to write, but time won't let you.

When I woke up this morning and realized that I never wrote my day 4 to get myself back on track I thought for a moment "maybe this 31 day challenge isn't for me, maybe I should back out from it" .. but then the part of me that loves to write and loves a challenge saw it a different way - maybe this is a part of the challenge itself.

So here I am.. writing a blog for day 4 about time, and maybe it will help others to realize they are in the same boat and this is yet another part of the connecting. Maybe it was meant to be so I could see how normal it is to not have it all together in a timely fashion - not even close and that's okay because maybe this is good enough.

So in closing on day 4 of my 31 days of reflection, I would have to say this was a great reminder that just because something says we have to do something a certain way, doesn't mean we can't be human right in the middle of it.

It's better to write with truth, than the write just to make a quota . . . . so from now on, I will write and know that I may be behind a day, or even a couple days ahead ... whatever the case may be, it's good enough no matter what it is.