This year has been a long long road; one that held its many challenges and obstacle.
Today in session I began to feel all those old familiar feelings of me coming back, like I am emerging out of the hard year that I have had.
I have to admit, it was a good feeling sitting next to my therapist and reflecting on what the hard year represented and where I am now going forward on this amazing path, and in that I was met with so much acceptance and I felt heard.
I have written a lot about how hard the past 2 years has been for me. I have spoken a lot about how this has effected me and what burdens this has put upon me.. its nice to sit and write about how connected and grounded I feel compared to where I was just a couple of months ago.
This past week alone I have opened up more in therapy than I have in the past year. It was a great connection this week and I truly feel God was present.
I believe God is working truly hard inside of me; to help me move through what the past couple of years has done to me. I truly believe that with all my heart and being. I know it, because I can feel the difference inside of me. Its one of those things that i just know because I can feel it.
I believe God is like the wind, you can't see him, but you can feel him, and he is really creating a connection all around me.
What changed? I think what changed the most for me is, I stopped pushing away and started accepting. I began to trust the love, support and connection all around me, and that led me to hear and see a lot of things I normally would push away.
I look forward to seeing more and more of where this connection to self will lead. It's hard work, and sometimes painful work, but I can see that its making a difference in the way I am able to be in acceptance to the people around me. It's different and good. It's familiar and yet new at the same time.
Here is my reflection on the amazing day I had today, an amazing session that held so much promise and hope going forward on the path to healing.