Five Minute Friday {Ready}

f95d752e8231326a1908c43fd29d9c0eWelcome to Five Minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing. No editing or backtracking. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours. Set the timer and write away! Stop at the 5 minute mark no matter where you are!

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {READY}

{Start}

I am ready for a change! I am ready for a different kind of change - the kind of change that by standing on the outside looking in, you see the hard, but you also see change in the hard to the point of knowing that hope is right there in the middle of it!

I have had an incredibly hard hard year; the kind of year where hope faded in and out more times than not.

My whole healing path has been about change.. change every day, hope upon hope, healing and connection .. and every day I see change happening, but I am ready for more.. I am ready to take steps I have never taken before, I just need to find my ground and trust that its safe to take bigger steps into that hard and out the other side.

This past year has been about being in this isolation and being afraid to take steps out of the hard... well I have realized that maybe it's not about taking steps OUT of the hard, but maybe taking steps INTO the hard to get out to the other side.

We sometimes focus so much on trying to move out of something, that we rarely see that the healing really happens INSIDE the hard and through the harder moments we are afraid to face.

I saw this quote this week and it has hit me many many times .. the quote is "what we avoid feeling, persists"

If we continue to run from the feelings of hard, they will always remain there no matter what route we take. Stay, walk through the hard, look at the hard, and know what is on the other side.

I think I am ready for that step.. and even though I am ready doesn't mean I have to have it all figured out... maybe taking this step is about learning how to be in the hard and not running from it.

My therapist and I have been working incredibly hard this past year.. we have taken steps around the hard, along side of the hard, have seen the hard - but I think it's time to take steps IN the hard.

I am tired of running away from how I feel and into the isolation I have been in this whole year, and maybe just maybe instead of running away from it, it's about running towards it.

I am ready for something inside of me to be different, and although it may take some time and a process of healing what this past year has been - the first step is about saying "I am ready" and sometimes just acknowledging the feeling of being ready for something to be different, is what creates the ground for more steps to be made.

I am ready ......

"God holds me in the palm of His hand and no one can take Him from me”