Five Minute Friday {Change}

tumblr_mf7ztuRHa71rd98axo1_500Welcome to Five Minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing. No editing or backtracking. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours. Set the timer and write away! Stop at the 5 minute mark no matter where you are!

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {Change}

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When I found out from Kate what the Five Minute Friday word was going to be so I could make the graphic for the "Five Minute Friday Facebook" page, I got chills up and down my whole body! Change!!!

The word change is a big big word for me this week. I have dealt with a lot of internal change and I truly believe God is working strongly in many ways for me this week.

I believe God see's something in me and he is pushing at me to make that change - to make that step onto a path with more light and direction; I just need to find a way to trust it and believe in it.

Just like the butterfly, there is a process of change that has to take place before it turns into something beautiful, and when that happens, we are free to fly where ever and however we want.

That is what I believe has been happening to me for months now. A change is happening, but I am going through many painful levels of change. I have noticed small things happening to me inside but yet I am not quite sure where God is taking me yet - but I see it an I feel it, I just can't quite get there yet.

I believe like the butterfly that if we can't see or get to the place we are meant to be, maybe it just means the wings to the butterfly needs more time to grow stronger.

I think that is what is going on with me - a change is happening, but I am not quite ready to take the first flight towards what I feel happening inside of me ... something else needs to change in order for that to happen and I am working so hard to build those wings and take that first step out of this hard place I have been in now for 2 years.

I have come to realize that just because I feel pain in this process of growing, doesn't mean the good is not around me. Just because I go through moments of pain during this, doesn't mean good is now growing out of it. I am growing even though it hurts and I struggle.

So as I sit here tonight, change has a big meaning for me ... something is changing inside of me, and I need to be patient, trust the process, trust those around me who can see the change happening, and to trust that God knows what this change will bring me!

Change can be a very hard process; but one that helps us to grow into something better than we were before.

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