This weekend I made a new healing box. This is my 3rd healing box that I have made for my therapy room in the past 7 years, and this one of probably one of my favorites out of the three I have made. The past couple of months I have been really struggling with "self worth" and feeling down about myself, and we are working hard on reversing "old messages" from the past with "new messages" of truth now.
I created this box that was filled with positive words of affirmation and it was pretty emotional for me.
To tell you a little about the healing box... I made my first healing box 4 years ago. I had this idea to buy a tissue box that has a removable top and to wrap the box with plain brown wrapping paper so that I can create my own print.
After I wrap the box I buy embellishments and words to create the box that fits who I am and to incorporate whatever is going on in my healing at the time, and when I finish it, I bring it into therapy and it sits on my therapists desk.
The idea behind the healing box is to write small messages that I want to remember or a healing thought for the box to hold. It's a container for positive thoughts, or even hard thoughts that i want to let go of at the time.
This box holds words of affirmations all around, and its a great reminders of the path I am on right now.
My therapist and I will use this box after every session by writing a small message with positive thoughts about session and good affirming words to remember and lean on.
I love this idea as sometimes when we are in the hard, its sometimes a challenge to step back and see the changes happening.
My last healing box was about being a survivor and messages to remind me of the good hard work I am doing.. this box is more focused on self-affirmation to weed out the old messages that have been crawling in over the new healthy messages.
I look forward to bringing this into session today and replacing it to a new focus on the path we are on. This new work of working with the younger me and healing that part of my past so that I can live life on the outside and heal the wounds that keep me from living how I need to live.
I read a book over the weekend called "HUSH" and it talks about how healing happens in levels, and sometimes you have to be at the hardest level of pain to really heal!
Healing is not just about talking about what the past held and them your healed! Healing is deeper to where each level is lifted and the further down you get, the harder and more painful it is, but just because it gets harder, doesn't mean healing is NOT happening...... truth is, some of the best healing is happening and this new healing box is a reminder is just that on this new level of healing.
I am definitely at a new layer and level of healing and I feel how hard it is, but I also know that when you get to something THIS hard, something is happening, moving, and shifting.
This box was a lot of fun to make, and there was some emotional ties to it as well! I's not easy to make affirming words about myself and to fully believe in them! "I am worthy" was hard to put on that box, because my past tells me different, but to put those words on the box and find belief in those new messages is what this new path is about.
I look forward to this box and seeing what it will hold ... I look forward to sharing this part of my journey with all those who are walking along side of me on this amazing, hard yet healing path.