finding serenity

tumblr_mq1f1ycA4Y1sor4o5o1_500I am excited to say that we are taking another beach trip for 3 nights and 4 days in Destin and I am so looking forward to it. We leave tomorrow morning after my session with the car already packed and ready to go!

This was a surprise to say the least as it was offered to us for free to stay in a condo right on the beach!

I thought our last small beach trip a couple of weeks ago was it for the summer because of our hectic schedule, but God has provided something that was certainly needed, and I intend to soak it in and enjoy time with my boys.

I am also excited that my oldest son is also coming with us. I don't get to spend much time with my oldest due to him managing at a restaurant and his hours are hellish, but he has arranged to make it happen and that makes me one happy mom!

Going to the beach is probably one of my favorite things to do! I don't know what it is about the beach but it changes me, and puts me in this tranquil mood to where nothing else really matters at the time. I think God created the ocean for that very reason.

I can also rest in knowing that my mom is doing a little better and she is going back to her home tomorrow from the hospital to be cared for by the nurses, and I can breathe a little better knowing she is being taken care of, and she is feeling a little better.

This has truly been a hard year for me, and my hope is that I can leave a little of that and allow myself to relax and have a good time for myself! Caring for myself is a challenge, but it's something that I am learning slowly to do.

My therapist will say to me before going "what can you leave here with me so that you don't have to carry it with you?" .. when he says that I picture myself holding all these bags on my back and handing him one to carry. I think a part of the healing work has been about learning to let and allow someone else to carry some of which I hold, and it has taken me a long time to understand how to let someone else hold something for me, and how to let something be held for me while I go and rest and be for myself.

My hope is that I am able to leave some of what I hold before going to the beach so that I can be free of that for a couple of days. Leave it with my therapist, let him hold onto it knowing that when I get back on Monday, it will be carefully talked about, cared for and still understood.

so I need to go finish packing.. and you will for sure be reading some blog writings from the beach :) with some photos as well!