Five Minute Friday {Broken}

229161Welcome to five minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing. No editing or backtracking. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours.

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {Broken}

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When I began therapy over 6 years ago I thought I was there because I was broken, damaged, and tainted.

One of the hardest things I have ever done in my life is take that first step into therapy and tell my story because when you grow up believing everything that happened was your fault, you believe it. When you are told over and over again that you are the problem, that stays inside for a very long time.

It wasn't until a couple of years ago that I truly started to understand that I wasn't the broken one, it was those who hurt me that were broken, and that is what therapy was about, not fixing me, but understanding where the broken-ness was and to heal from that.

There are days that I still struggle with the belief that it's not me and I need reminding from those around me who love and care about me. Those old messages were so painful that sometimes it's hard to break through that old lie, and then there are days I truly see it, and truly see those who hurt me for who they are.

Therapy for me is not about fixing me, but about finding the truth and my worth so that I can heal, and it took me a long time to actually admit to that, feel worthy of that, and accept that.

There is this bible verse that I love and that is "God will restore what the enemy has taken" .. and in that I truly believe God has helped me to restore the belief that I am not the broken one, I am good enough and I am healing that lie that I am not everyday.

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